My sister and nephew have been home for a week or so. I missed these morning snuggles and they’ll be leaving again soon for at least 3 years :(
I fall & fall again into the desires and way of thinking that I’m soooooo tired, I can’t POSSIBLY go workout. Or, I don’t want to do it before work cause I’ll be too sore to provide good enough care.
Which is somewhat true but mostly an excuse. I’m so ashamed that I’ve continued to go back and forth after such a long time of success. I know better, I should DO better!!!
I feel like my world is crashing recently…. Not just from being unhealthy but outside of that too.
Anyway, today I’m going to crossfit as soon as I wake back up (3am now).
Excited for the quarter to be over tomorrow!!!! C’mon weekend, be here :) :)
Tomorrow: 2 mile walk/jog & crossfit
Healthy healthy eating too.
Raw fruit veggies nuts and a big ol salad!!!! Mmmmmm :)
The last week has been pretty stressful and a few events took place, resulting in me giving Ruby up and almost losing my new job.
Things are starting to look up though.
Yesterday I took an exam in chemistry, got a low score so my overall grade moved from 94% to 89%. Hopefully the final on Thursday goes well and I can get it back to an A. :)
I also need to raise my math grade by 3% by Monday in order to move on to the next level of math. Yikes. It’ll happen though.
You can’t change what you don’t admit.
I still haven’t been exercising or cooking my own meals. I’ve gained 10 pounds back in a month & half. That’s not okay. And yes, I’m worried.
I made a post once about how I fear the day that I get off track and never get back on. I feel like that’s where I am at right now. I keep saying I’m going to get back on the wagon and it’ll be easy… And so far it hasn’t happened.
For over a month.
I’m going to do my best. I am going to leave my money at home unless I’m getting groceries or gas etc. I’ve been getting my meals at the co op a LOT the past month.
I’m also going to set my alarm for crossfit every morning @6 again. Having it scheduled in worked for MONTHS. It’s when I said “nah I’ll go when I find time and am more awake” that I stopped going.
That way I can get in the routine of crossfit/class/work in that order again. Every. Single. Day. Not just when I feel like it or it’s convenient.
I’m going to start being more accountable again and posting pics of me working out/ my meals… Sending them to friends for proof that I made my meal and I DID workout. :)
Not sure why I ever stopped
Time to make shit happen
Well, my new job is KILLING me. My entire body aches to the point I can hardly move and just when it’s getting better, it’s time for me to go back in! I know as time goes on my body will adapt to running around and lifting things non stop for 8 hours but until then… it sucks! =)
Last night was my first time on the floor by myself and it went okay. I didn’t get a full lunch break and wasn’t able to take my two 15’s. I feel like people were picking up my slack, and I have no idea if it was a lot or not but I told each and every one that I appreciate it! A few told me I’m awesome for sticking it out and not crying. Apparently there is a good amount of people who cried their first few days, including the nurse.
Other than that things are good. I wanted to hit up the store after sooooo badly and buy junk cause I was stressed and hurting, but continued on my way home. Big accomplishment with the way things have been going. :)
I made it to crossfit yesterday, another big accomplishment given my lack of ANYTHING healthy lately. It felt good. It felt really good and I’m pumped to go today after class.
1-3 exercise ruby & relax
3-6 quick work
6-10 watch the BACHELOR! (finally!), homework, walk ruby & whatever else
Wednesday is my “free” day but I’ll be spending it doing homework and studying for my last exam and final next week.
Picture #1 is of me wearing new scrubs I had to buy cause my old ones are way too big. I can wear them but they look horribly large. Picture #2 is of ruby with her cousin Oakley. They had fun together running around and swimming in the lake.
;) :) :) :)
So, yesterday I spent the entire day in orientation at my new job before an additional 4 hours at my regular work.
Ahhh, that meant no exercise for me and only 40 minutes for Ruby. She was so good. I didn’t come home to anything in my bedroom chewed apart! Then when I was trying to look at my homework, I was ignoring her wanting to play and she started chewing up one of my shoes. Lesson learned. Give her the exercise, both physically and mentally, that she needs every day or suffer the consequences. ;)
I start this new job tomorrow. My shift will temporarily be 2-10:30pm until a 6a-2:30pm shift opens up for me. I’m glad crossfit has helped strengthen my back up again, otherwise I’d be super worried about re-injury. I still am worried but not too much. I know to be careful because I know the risk and that it’s NOT worth it.
My schedule is gonna be crazy for the next couple weeks (at least) while I finish up this quarter, and maybe even through the end of June if I decide to take classes spring quarter.
2 jobs, college, new puppy, weight loss.
I got this.